Friday, February 27, 2009

I'm Back....with a whimper!

Wow! Hi there! I've missed everyone and I hope I haven't fallen completely off of the blogosphere radar - however I wouldn't be surprised if I did since I just sort of disappeared after my last HAYSAY post. I couldn't help it though because life just sort of bitch-slapped me right across the face. It was a doozie, I tell you what.

What, you ask, happened and what exactly did I do doing during my hiatus? Well, I wiped up about a million gallons of snot from runny little noses, wiped away zillions of tears, took two sick, miserable kids to the doctors three times in one week, gave out about 50 doses of Tylenol and other medications, missed a full week of work, and then came down with a whopper of a cold myself. So, yeah. The last week or so has really sucked and I am really glad that February is almost over. The Month of Love my ass - more like the The Month of the Plague. I am happy to report though that everyone is finally feeling better and back to normal and I am almost caught up at work.

Now that I am finally writing a new post, I have to say that it feels strange - like I'm really out of practice or something. I feel rusty. Not like I was ever super sharp in the first place,but you probably get my drift.

Anyway, my little "vaca" from my blog gave me some much needed time to ponder some issues I have revolving around my blog. Because of issues with work and other things, I didn't have much time to blog in the first place and when I did, it was to post my HAYSAY update. But I am really tired of posting what I call "non-updates" - you know the "hi, nothing new here...again. Same weight, different day" type of posts. For this reason I have decided that I'm going to take a break from HAYSAY for a while and when I finally start seeing some results worth sharing, I will show my face again.

In the meantime, I am going to try like hell to post more consistently about all topics and issues that take up so much precious square footage in my brain. I have all kinds of ideas for future posts so please check back often - I promise I won't disappear again...unless March has some nasty little trick up her sleeve!!

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

Monday, February 16, 2009

HASAY UPDATE - Week Something or other - Attack of the Chocolate Hearts

Hi! How ya all doing? I've been reading some awesome HASAY updates and I figured I should get off my butt and throw something up here on my little blog.

I have noticed that some of my fellow HASAYERS have made some awesome progress this past week, and for that I commend you! Especially since it was Valentine's Day "week". Others like me are still treading the choppy HASAY waters - just barely staying a float.

Actually, I shouldn't really say that because I did a pretty good job this week. I watched what I ate, went for a really long run over the weekend, did weight-loss yoga several times and chased the boys in the backyard - I just didn't lose any weight. In fact, if HASAY was a "maintain your current weight" challenge, I would be the hands down, uncontested winner. Unfortunately it's not - it's a "weight-loss" challenge and I do know that.I think my body didn't get that memo.

However, I am going to refrain from bitching about not losing any weight this week because wow - did your kids bring home a ton of Valentine's Day candy too? I really can't believe the haul my pre-schooler brought back from his school's Valentine's Day party. It was like a Halloween repeat. His Valentine's Day "box" is so packed with chocolates, suckers, gummy candies, and so many other goodies that I'll be rationing it out for weeks to come. I'm surprised that I didn't gain 10 pounds just by being around so much candy!

I remember when I was a kid, Valentine's Day at my school consisted of just the little cards and maybe some of those crappy Necco heart candies and that was it. Apparently things have changed.

Monday, February 9, 2009

HASAY update - same S&*! - different day

Wow - I sort of just dropped off the blogger radar didn't I? One of my New Year's resolutions was to step things up with my blog and post every other day but instead I let things slide - big time. Ah well, all I can do is pick up from where I left off and keep on trucking, right? That seriously seems to be the theme of my life right now - one step forward, two steps back.

Okay, so let's talk HASAY, shall we? I don't know about you folks, but it appears that my body and its fat have become such close friends that they no longer want to separate. It's maddening really because I do watch what I eat. I cook healthy meals and I don't snack on lots of junk food. I don't sit in front of the tv and eat chips or ice cream. I don't drink soda. I don't eat huge portions of food either, AND I exercise at least three times a week. But nothing seems to be working.

I told myself at the beginning of the year that I was not going to focus on "losing weight" per se, and instead I was going to focus on being as healthy as I could possible be. But I'm starting to get a little panicked, because we finally bit the bullet and purchased our tickets to Hawaii for my husband's little sister's June wedding. I don't think "focusing on being as healthy as I can possibly be" is going to get me to a point where I feel comfortable enough in my own skin to bear being around people in the negative size range. I'm gonna have to wear a swim suit people!At the beach! I almost faint when I think about it.

So, I guess it all boils down to this. I have 5 months to whip my ass into decent enough shape so that I won't have a panic attack if we go to the beach. I'm not sure how I'm going to do it though - I guess I'll have to step it up even more by doing more of the things I'm already to doing right and then look for ways to improve where I can. I know I need to drink more water and get more sleep. And it would probably help a ton if I upped my cardio by adding running and increased my strength training routine as well.

So there. There's my plan. Yet another plan. I have no idea if it will produce any results. I want to say it won't right off the bat because it seems like nothing I have done since I stopped nursing has worked. It really feels like I'm grasping at straws!

I also know that in the end I should just be thankful for a having a healthy body and for being able to do what I like to do. But just for once I would also like to NOT feel like the biggest girl in the room. Is that too much to ask?