Tuesday, January 6, 2009

HASAY Update - A new perspective and a couple of baby steps

Yawn!! I'm tired. Tired of hauling my butt out of my toasty warm bed at an un-godly hour in un-godly cold weather to do un-godly things to my body. But that's what it takes to get and stay in shape, right? At least I hope so because this whole fitness thing is hard people.

I found a picture of myself the other day. It was taken in my pre-kid days when my husband and I were just crazy kids in love. I was tan and pretty dang thin. I blush to say it really - but I was smokin!!! The funny thing is - I thought I didn't look so great then. Go figure right?

What would I do to look like that now? I'll tell you what I'd do. I would gnaw off my right foot to look like that now. I would slap the little hottie in that picture and tell her to stop being so hard on herself and to enjoy her body more because it was only going to get worse after she had kids and the years started piling on. I would chastise her for not being more grateful and appreciative of her body. Yes, that's what I would do.

I look back on all the years of my life I have spent being unhappy with my appearance and my weight and I just CRINGE. I CRINGE!! Looking back on those pictures it's obvious that I was just plain crazy! I was healthy and fit and at probably at the ideal weight. I should have been more confident about my appearance, happier about my weight, but I wasn't and it really is a shame. If only I knew then what I know now!

Anyway, I really am going somewhere with this and this is where - I am tired of being unhappy with myself and tired of wanting something "better" when it comes to my body. That's why this year I threw the obligatory "I'm going to lose 20 lbs right out the 'ol window" and my new health resolution is to just focus on being as healthy and fit as I can be and where ever that gets be it.

So far I'm doing great sticking to my resolution - I have exercised about three times a week, I've cut down my portion sizes at mealtimes and I have nixed all late night snacking, and I've started drinking more water. In addition to all of that I plan on picking up the phone right after I'm done with this post to call my doctor's and schedule all of my "lady stuff" appointments in one fell swoop.

Now... where's my doctor's number?

So there you have it. My rambling, venting HASAY post for this week.


Heather said...

What I wouldn't do to have my 20's something body back as well!!!
But, I have learned over the years too....and it took a loooooong time, is to be happy with the body I'm in. (be it a little heavier)
You're doing great!!!

Sprite's Keeper said...

You go, girl! Slap that old you! Er, wait.. Um, yeah!

Mommy In Pink said...

Okay...I loved this post, and I'll tell you why..

It was honest and real and I totally feel the same way...I mean I'm getting back in shape, but it's such a slow and treacherous process that sometimes I feel like giving up.

I too often look at old pictures of myself and think "Why the hell didn't I think I looked good?"

You are doing great...and as they say..."Slow and steady wins the race"...but I know from personal experience, that it's always easier said than done!

Great post, good luck and stay positive!



Michelle said...

Great update. I'm a new HASAYer and I love your goal. It's similar to mine. I don't want to care about the number on the scale, just on how things fit.

Keely said...

omg I'm totally the same. I've never spent a LOT of time berating myself about my shape, but I've never been very happy with it either. wth was wrong with me??

Lisa @ Boondock Ramblings said...

I hear you. I was like that too at that age...I'm fat...yadda, yadda. No. Now I'm FAT. The baby did that, but I love the baby, so he was worth it!

Thanks for stopping by my blog. I'll be back to visit!

Laufa said...

I completely agree with you and feel exactly the same - I think I was hawt too (back then). Even have some bikini pics that I thought I looked fat, but really I very muscular and had a mini-pooch (nothing like now). Those were the days.
Great goal and keep at it, your doing great!!!

Casey said...

Hi Leslie... I finally made it by, sorry! I've been bogged down with insomniac children and haven't been on the computer much.

Great great GREAT post, I feel exactly the same way. I found a picture of my early twenty-year old self wearing a bikini (I remember how insecure I felt having that picture taken) and I looked good. Grrr. I wish I felt good back then. You're doing great keeping up with HASAY. Can you exercise twice for me please? I'm not finding the time to do it myself. I guess that would be extracise. Not funny, I know.